I woke up today
With my emotions swaying a different way.
The sun is shining but the shadows are in the way.
How can I see the sky of blue when my eyes are always gray?
How can I look forward to tomorrow when yesterday is always today?
How can I stop the tears
When the rain is always falling?
How can I stop the demons from always calling?
Why do I feel shame and not the glory?
Because when I open the book it’s just a scary story
Sometimes I get into a head on collision with a flashback vision.
When the winds of life are too strong to walk against.
I sometimes stay in place waiting for my emotional apocalypse.
I walked in dirt,
I stepped in crap
You can never tell because I hide it well.
I hide behind the Thalia masks.
Always happy,
But yet always sad,
My life for me is bearable enough.
Even when the fight is tough
For others fighting.
I make it sharable.
Even when our fight is a misunderstanding.
Just remember
Against our demons
We are the last ones standing.
- Joaquim Manuel ©October 2021
